Today I did not feel well most of the day. This is very hard for me because I feel like I have so much to do and want to be doing it. I have never been good at "sitting still" and I am the worst patient on the planet. I can't even watch t.v. without doing something else at the same time so I don't feel like I am totally wasting my time.
When my mom offered to watch the kids for us so we could go to dinner or order take-out I really wanted to take advantage so I could do something to celebrate with my hubby. Despite the icky feelings, I willed myself to feel better enough to go. (If you are a mom, you totally know what I am talking about here.) We ended up having a wonderful, quiet time. This was the first "date night" that we had since before Kearyn was born, which was over 8 1/2 months ago. It was really good to have that adult conversation without having a baby meltdown or food thrown at you. Well, there was that one time that Jason got a little rowdy with his dessert but it wasn't anything I couldn't handle. (Just kidding.)
I know if it weren't for Jason that I wouldn't be able to deal with any of this. God truly blessed me so greatly when he put him in my life and God continues to bless me daily with Jason's presence. He helps to keep me strong when I am weak. When I sobbed in his arms when I first got the news that I had cancer because I was so scared to die and leave my children, he was there and he reminded me that I couldn't limit God in what He could do. He whispered to me over and over, "Don't limit God, don't limit God...." until my heart heard what he was telling me.
There are no words to express what it is like to have someone like that in your corner, constantly reminding me of my faith. I just hope and pray that I am the same light for him as he has been for me.
I love you Jason, more than you could ever know. Thank you for being my husband. Happy Valentine's Day my love.
Love Always,
Andrea
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