It seems crazy to think that only 10 days have passed since the initial diagnosis. In that 10 days many tests have been ran (I have lost count), the diagnosis was confirmed, and chemo has started. I can't imagine living in limbo for several weeks wondering what the future might bring. I am so grateful that my family and I did not have to endure that.
Today was probably the hardest day I have had yet with regards to my treatment. That is not saying much because we are barely into this journey. I woke feeling pretty rough and I am still trying to learn how to manage the nausea. I also slept a lot today.
My three year old is still sick and the baby is either teething again or not responding well to her new formula. Maybe a combination of both, I am not sure. Jason is definitely being kept on his toes. He is very good at taking care of us all and I am so grateful that he is the man God chose for me. I do not know what I would do without him.
I did start to feel slightly sorry for myself this morning when I felt so icky and then God brought me my baby girl via Jason's arms. I looked at her precious baby face and remembered instantly what it's all for. It is for the future that God has planned for my family and I. One in which we will prosper. This was not a promise that things will always be easy but it is a promise of hope and His undying love for us.
Another swift reminder came by means of a simple piece of paper taped to a restaurant window. It was of a man needing help as he was just diagnosed with stage 4 Lymphoma. I whispered to Jason, "This could have been me." It is so sobering and humbling all at the same time. So, in the midst of the new dynamic our family is facing, trying to figure out how to do this all over again, I am continually grateful for all that I have. Including the promise and the hope of a prosperous future.
Hi Andrea,
ReplyDeleteI admire your positive perspective during this time. It encourages me to know that even in the hard times we still have a faithful God who is with us every step of the way. I know it isn't always easy so thank you. Thank you for sharing your heart and keeping your blog updated. I am praying for you and the family. Love you guys and I look forward to the day of victory when it's over.
Charity
Continued prayers for you and yours. I love your transparency and your heart for your God and your family. Praying you feel His peace during this time.
ReplyDeleteHi Andrea,
ReplyDeleteI visited with your Dad the other day and found about about this. First, I'm so sorry that you have to go through this, but second, you are one of the strongest people I know and I have faith in both you and our Father in Heaven that this will all work out.