Today I am tired. I think the roller coaster of emotion has just exhausted me. I had another test today given by a very animated man who has definitley found a way to make the most of his job. :-)
I enjoyed a quiet lunch with my husband, some more appointments, and then home.
My Sadness:
Today is the last day I will be able to nurse Kearyn. The chemo will affect my breast milk from tomorrow on and so she will be on a bottle as of tomorrow. I know it is a small price to pay for being able to enjoy her first birthday, her first steps, being here to teach her to read, watching her graduate from high school, and someday watching her daddy walk her down the aisle but it does pull at my heartstrings.
As any breastfeeding mother knows, it is more than just feeding time. It is such a bonding moment. Something between just my baby girl and me. But like I said, trading weaning her a few months early is worth the chance to experience her life with her. I will dry my mommy tears and hold her like I have never held her before, so thankful that he did give me 8 months and 8 days to nurse my baby girl.
(I posted this on your Facebook link as well, but just wanted to cover my bases in case you checked back here more often. Sorry for bugging you twice!)
ReplyDeleteTotally valid feelings, sweet mama. I ordered some Organic No More Milk Tea bags online for our Empty Arms care baskets. It is supposed to naturally reduce milk production.
Here are the ingredients (not sure what your diet restrictions are currently): Mentha piperita (organic peppermint) leaf, Petroselinum crispum (organic parsley) leaf, Hibiscus sabdariffa (organic hibiscus) flower, Salvia officinalis (organic sage) leaf.
If that sounds like something you think would be helpful to you, let me know and I can drop some by. Church, home, wherever. No doubt you're exhausted today. Praying for good rest and a smooth transition for you and baby girl. Hold on, mama.