Day 2: A Day of Rest....

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Today was suppose to be a day of more testing but we were about half way to Grand Junction and the doctor's office called me an told us that there had been a mix-up in the scheduling.

Although it would have been nice to get it out of the way so that I could get the diagnosis Friday as planned I can tell you that I wasn't that sad about it. I know God's timing is perfect in all of this.

It was nice to be at home today just having a day of rest. It was also so nice because I could nurse my baby girl today. She was definitely happy. Tomorrow will be a different story all together. I feel that my days are numbered for me to be able to nurse her and I am trying to enjoy those moments and also prepare her for the next stage so that it isn't so hard on her.

We have just been flooded with prayer and offers of help and support. I am left with no words to describe how incredibly blessed I feel. My dear sweet friends and family are just too wonderful. I love you all so much.

My Random Thoughts....

I was laying there trying to go to sleep and I thought about what it would be like if my husband or my children were to be diagnosed with this same thing. The thought of that was horrifying to me. I know that I would much rather this happen to me then them. I know that thought and the peace that it is with me and not them will carry me a long way through all of this.

My second thought came much later. I was listening to worship music as I often do, especially when I am going through a struggle, and the image of Jesus being beaten and battered came into my mind. I instantly thought - what do I have to complain about. I know that image will be a source of strength for me throughout this journey.

The Funny of the Day...


My 17 year old little brother came over this evening and when he got here he told me that when I lose my hair that I can have his "luscious locks" and that he would shave his head for me. He made some other comments about how I would look like a wild mustang galloping in the wind - or something like that - I was laughing uncontrollably at his demonstration because that is what he always makes me do....laugh. I told him that I had never been a blond before. It might be a nice change. :-)

My Blessing of Today: That I got to nurse my baby girl. I was able to take a nap with my husband. I was able to feel God's peace and protection. That I was continually provided love, support, and encouragement through my friends and family.

Thank you God.

My Prayer Request Today: That they find out what they need to tomorrow. That "it" hasn't spread through to other parts of my body. I pray for my husband and my children.

Love you all dearly,
Andrea