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I was listening to my music today and I heard this song, which is one of my favorites, and a flood of memories washed over me. I have always really liked this song. To me, it is the ultimate worship of God, praising Him in a storm. Isn't it so much easier to praise Him when things are going "just right"? At least for me it always has been.
Although I have listened to this song many times, the first time I really heard this song happened in a car ride shortly after we lost our baby boy in April of 2009. I remember so vividly - it came on the radio and I just started crying. The pain was still so very fresh and I just felt like God was telling me this was what I needed to do. Praise HIM in this storm.
Since that time, I have rarely been able to listen to this song without at least tearing up. I think of my son in Heaven, waiting for me with his 4 other brothers and sisters. I think of the pain of that time in my life and how I never knew if I would fully recover or not.
Well, I have never fully recovered and I know I never will. But I can also say that I don't know if I want to. No longer feeling that pain would mean that I would somehow forget and I never want to forget the baby that I only got to hold one time. I am a different person for what I went through then and I am a different person for what I am going through now. But despite it all, I am still praising God in this storm as I praised Him in the last.
I know many of your are in "storms" right now. Some of you have recently had or have a family member who has had a miscarriage, like Jason and I endured so many times. Some of you, like me, were just diagnosed with an illness or are battling some sort of injury. Some of you are having trouble in a relationship - marriage or otherwise. Some of you are having financial struggles. It doesn't really matter what the "storm" is - it is still a storm in your life and therefore it is meaningful to not only you but to God as well.
You see, through all of this, I have never doubted God's love for me. I have been certain of that, if nothing else, continually. I have so many things before me to remind me of His love. I have my husband and my four beautiful children. I have my family and friends that remind me of His love through your kind words and loving gestures. These are the things that I cling to during the storm.
I pray that if you are listening to this song for the first time that it touches your heart as it has touched mine. I pray that if you have listened to this song before that you will be able to "hear" it on an entirely different level now. I pray that no matter what storm you are in right now - large or small - that you continue to feel God's love and are able to praise Him in the storm. God bless you all. ~Andrea
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