[the room] - where my world changed forever

While I was at my scan last week I thought it would be interesting to document some of it.
I had never done that before.
I don't know why.
Probably because that was not what I was focusing on at the time.

Why this time was different - I don't know.

However, as I started to take some pictures some things hit me.
Namely, a flood of memories of 2.2.2011.
The day I was diagnosed.

This is the room where we received the news of my diagnosis.

I sat in that very chair that you can see through the door there. 

I will never forget those words.

We think you have lymphoma.

5 words.

19 months and 2 days later I can still hear the doctor saying them as if they just happened yesterday. 

I had not noticed this room before during my other scans.

I guess it was one of those things where I just kept my head down and did what I needed to do. 

This time was different. 

It was strange.

And hard.

Like I had to face some of these things to truly move on. 

Healing. 

Wow.

Just when you think your "good" you realize how far you are from really being "good". 

(Pretty sure I just opened myself up to a flood of comments there. Please, just be kind.) 

Thanks for hanging in there with me and my weird photos and blog posts. 

No one has turned me in yet - so I must still be okay. 

Things are looking up yet! 

:-) 

(Yes, I typically do use sarcasm to mask and deflect my inner most feelings. That's for all my counselor friends out there. You know who you are. :-)